I am so random

eh this barely even has anything to do with randomness except that it is random. I feel like I got a rose. You probably think I am crazy. How do you feel like you got a thing?? Well I'll try and explain. What I mean is there is something that is precious but every time I get close to it I get pricked or stabbed by the sharp realities. I feel like I am dying on the inside. But the problem is sometimes I just want to totally get rid the metaphorical rose, pretending like it is the most ugly, shriveled, colorless thing, and other times I can bare the pricks and pretend like they don't exist in order to keep that thing which seems to have some value in keeping. I don't blame you if you do not understand any of this, but after all, I originally did just create this for me. myself, and I. Thus, I would be surprised if anyone besides me myself and I could understand this mumblejumble.

Spacing out..

Do you ever have those moments when you know something important could be said at any given moment and you start spacing out? This happens to me ALL the time. Like today, I was sitting in lab and I totally spaced out while the professor was explaining what to do. Or that time last year when I was having a serious conversation with a friend and I could not remember half of what the friend said because my mind was going crazy with my own thoughts. In times, like these that I have mentioned, I eventually regret not trying to listen. Now there are other times when spacing out isn't so bad. Like when two other people are arguing and I just lose myself in my own thoughts to get away from theirs. Or when I am alone and there are no words to miss. Are other people like me in this way? I have no clue.. well maybe my sisters! Please don't hate me Robin. Yes, I figure you are going to read this although your twin might not. Well if you are reading this, actually just leave me a comment to dispel my fears of being the only one who spaces out at the wrong moments. Yeah, that would be great, thanks! Goodbye!

Day... uhm I mean night.

Day ??. Coloring!

Frequently I will have these nights when I should sleep, but I cannot. There are many ways to combat this kind of sleep deprivation. Tonight I decided to color... and color.. and color, but to no avail. At last I finished coloring in the poster that I have been working to finish over the last two years. See, I originally wanted to go outside, but nobody wanted to come with me so that is why I resorted to coloring. Now I am awake. I have a Biology lab early tomorrow, and there is no way I am going to want to get up for it. Too bad I will have to anyways. Random fact about me: Music rarely helps me get to sleep, but I can fall mostly asleep during almost any movie. Ciao!

Day 19.

Listening to crazy love... Something about this song makes me like it. So for the most part school was good today. Between and after classes I noticed how quiet and vacated it was outdoors. Besides a person every now and then it seemed kinda deserted. Since it is only my second semester, I am used to seeing lots of people outside chatting or tossing a football. But on the other hand, the stillness lets you enjoy the small things..

patches of snow..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

furry little animals.. (he's hiding!)

 

Day 18.

So I got a little confused as to which post I was on. I am glad to say that I have figured this out and am back to the right day. ^_^ Anyways, since my big brother most likely is not going to see this, I can write about how much I am annoyed by him. Yay. So he acts all jealous all the time and keeps breaking up with his gf cause he thinks she's cheating or something. But like when she is finally saying she is done with him then he just wants to see her phone and like finally have some kind of evidence against her even though he has seen it before. Anyways, what do I think about this? This is one of the things I have against romantic relationships between young people. There's too much drama, not enough trust. People think they like each other or something and it just ends up in more brokenness and divorce. Idk.. it really is depressing. Then that makes me think too, how many people go into a relationship thinking "Is this the person I want to marry and spend the rest of my life with?"? I wish I had the actual statistics here to prove this, but in my stat class the teacher mentioned how about 50% of all marriages end up in divorce. Now THAT is pathetic. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU AMERICA??? Before I go into all the reasons why I am annoyed with this country I think I will just stop here and go to bed. Ciao!

Day 16? I forget.

So I started this post yesterday, but when I sat down I just couldn't think of anything to write. It was one of those blank days. Anyways idk what to write cause nothing is really going through my head atm.. besides that play about a murder which I have to write an essay about for english.. um so idk what to post. sorry >.<

random short post

ugh okay so what is on my mind at this late hour is how certain things happen and then you think its gonna get better, and just when you think it really is all better you realize you pretty much lost a friend and you didn't go looking for that friend before it was too late but now it is too late and said friend is gone from your life and it hurtss. You survive, you know it is just passing, but right at the moment you can think of everything that isn't right...