I am so random

eh this barely even has anything to do with randomness except that it is random. I feel like I got a rose. You probably think I am crazy. How do you feel like you got a thing?? Well I'll try and explain. What I mean is there is something that is precious but every time I get close to it I get pricked or stabbed by the sharp realities. I feel like I am dying on the inside. But the problem is sometimes I just want to totally get rid the metaphorical rose, pretending like it is the most ugly, shriveled, colorless thing, and other times I can bare the pricks and pretend like they don't exist in order to keep that thing which seems to have some value in keeping. I don't blame you if you do not understand any of this, but after all, I originally did just create this for me. myself, and I. Thus, I would be surprised if anyone besides me myself and I could understand this mumblejumble.

Spacing out..

Do you ever have those moments when you know something important could be said at any given moment and you start spacing out? This happens to me ALL the time. Like today, I was sitting in lab and I totally spaced out while the professor was explaining what to do. Or that time last year when I was having a serious conversation with a friend and I could not remember half of what the friend said because my mind was going crazy with my own thoughts. In times, like these that I have mentioned, I eventually regret not trying to listen. Now there are other times when spacing out isn't so bad. Like when two other people are arguing and I just lose myself in my own thoughts to get away from theirs. Or when I am alone and there are no words to miss. Are other people like me in this way? I have no clue.. well maybe my sisters! Please don't hate me Robin. Yes, I figure you are going to read this although your twin might not. Well if you are reading this, actually just leave me a comment to dispel my fears of being the only one who spaces out at the wrong moments. Yeah, that would be great, thanks! Goodbye!

Day... uhm I mean night.

Day ??. Coloring!

Frequently I will have these nights when I should sleep, but I cannot. There are many ways to combat this kind of sleep deprivation. Tonight I decided to color... and color.. and color, but to no avail. At last I finished coloring in the poster that I have been working to finish over the last two years. See, I originally wanted to go outside, but nobody wanted to come with me so that is why I resorted to coloring. Now I am awake. I have a Biology lab early tomorrow, and there is no way I am going to want to get up for it. Too bad I will have to anyways. Random fact about me: Music rarely helps me get to sleep, but I can fall mostly asleep during almost any movie. Ciao!